➵ Self love (introspective prioritization of self): mediate, look inward and focus on your positive traits. If you are able to love yourself more and like what you see, you will find peace. If you love yourself on a deeper level, you are able to love God and others more. Humans are fundamentally good and lovable.
// Ecclesiastes 3:1 //
“To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven.”
➵ Have you ever found yourself sprinting out the door because you were running late to class, a date or meeting?
➵ Have you ever felt like you are a little behind compared to others around you that are the same age?! You are doing what you believe you are supposed to be doing, but can’t seem to “get ahead.” You start to feel slightly embarrassed because it feels like you are the only one that is constantly at the end in this race called life. I’ve been there.
// To the one with a broken heart //
➵ They promised you the world
but took your heart and tore it apart.
You thought they would be your
knight and shining armor.
You saw forever in their eyes,
now you are like,
“this has all been a lie.”
I wish I could say this was the kind of car I drove around in while I was in LA, but it wasn't. I was tight on money, so I rented the cheapest car I could get. I was out there modeling and I needed a car to get me around. In NY I always relied on the subway, but in LA you need a car. The auditions, castings were all over.
Have you ever asked the Lord why?! Why me Lord? Why do you have me in this situation? Why am I going through this? Well, that is exactly what I was asking the Lord when He had me staying with my friend in LA. He quickly showed me that I wasn't there for myself, but for someone else. Let's rewind a bit.
Several years ago, I went out to LA to stay with a girl I knew who had been begging me to come for a visit. I needed an agency there anyways, so I thought this would be a good opportunity to possibly get one. She told me I wouldn't even need a car, I could just ride with her everywhere.
People have called me crazy, thought I wasn't comfortable in my own skin, and they thought I was insane for not being willing to take a little more off because I was a "model." "That's what models do, that's what modeling is about," they told me. Well, I hoped to prove them wrong.
Some girls are taking it off for the follow,
but they don't see
it only makes them more hollow.
The attention makes them feel a type of way,
then it becomes an insatiable crave.
Since my stance on #ANTM, I have often been asked what the difference is between a bathing suit and underwear are. Many people did not understand why I would wear one, but not the other. My explanation on Top Model didn't get aired and I looked aloof, although if you know me at all, you know I stand strong, bold in my convictions.
Several years ago I had a sciatic nerve problem. I never had this issue before in my life. It affected the way I slept, sat, my workouts, and sometimes, even the way I walked. During this time I used to drive a lot to Chicago for modeling from Indianapolis. At times, the car ride became unbearable. My husband would always drive when he could because I would have to stick my left leg out to help ease the pain.
I have never tasted alcohol. Yep, you read that right. Not a beer, not a sip of wine, notta. There are several reasons why.
I have seen firsthand the destruction it CAN cause. I have seen people get so twisted, that when I looked at them, I no longer saw "them." They became a different person.
Throwback and this one goes out to Tyra Banks. 😌 She sent me the sweetest message a few days ago and it touched my heart. Ever since ANTM people have constantly asked me, "how's Tyra?" Well, here ya go.
If you don't think God is cool then listen up. I used to pray for my future spouse often. My mom and I decided to pray together. We did that for several months. If you know my mom, you know she doesn't pray "short" prayers, so my time with her was definitely an investment! Ha! To be honest, I didn't always enjoy praying, (or with her), for it is hard work.
Back in the day, I was extremely infatuated with this guy I had met at my agency in Cincinnati. His looks made my heart flutter and my eyes bulge out of my head. I got so nervous just being in the same room as him.
I am sharing my story with you because the Lord stirred me up. This part of me, I have desired to keep hidden away. I wanted it to be locked up in a vault no one could get in to. God pressed upon me that as long as I kept it a "secret," I wouldn't be able to share with others of the amazing power of the Lord Almighty.